To The Future

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful
Assalamualaikum

Title: The Future

What is it that's hard to break? HABIT! It's hard to break a habit. Because you see...

If you break the H, you still have the A BIT.

If you break the A, you still  have the BIT.
If you break the B, you sitll have the IT.
But hey, after you break the T from IT, you still have the letter ' I ' in it.

And that ' I ' is the root cause of all the problems, that we are faced with. Agree? Okay so now we know why HABIT, is so hard to break. And then I realised that...

I can't afford to be lazy anymore. I need to work harder. I need to be extra focused in everything that I do, as of from now on. I've to be tough, I've to go hard on myself for I have been lazing around for far too much. I used to procrastinate, but I realised that procrastination will get me to nowhere. I need to get out of my comfort zone. I should stop the habit of procrastination.

Semester 2 is going to be one heck of a hectic one. A tough battle awaits but I'll brave this through. I'll stop at nothing, to get a GPA score of at least 3.5 points and above this time round. Do it once, do it right, and I will have no regrets. Dear mum and dad, I am doing this for you; for the sake of our family. I want to give us a happier future, and I want you to live without worries when you've reached the old age, insyaAllah.

On the ukhrawi side, I've decided that I will continue with Pergas's Sijil Lanjutan Pengajian Islam, upon graduating from Sijil Pengajian Islam this year. And with that SPI certificate in hand, perhaps I'll look for a permanent part-time job as a weekend pre-school teacher at some local mosques insyaAllah. I hope that'll help to ease the burden of my parents by a little.

Balancing ukhrawi and duniawi, have never been easy for me. I want to run towards my Lord, but dunya's always holding me back. I always find myself to be stuck in so many worldly affairs that I sometimes hardly even think about my Lord. Geez. I need to spend some time alone on my prayer mat and do some self muhasabah. Where have you been to all these while Susu? Seek Him, love Him, confide in Him. Turn back to Allah, Susu. Turn back to Him...