Wardina Safiyyah

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful
Assalamualaikum

Title: My Idol

" Because Islam is cool, and Islam is the only way of life. "

Wardina Safiyyah, my greatest idol of all time. She's so pretty, so gorgeous, and I've always respected her all along. But who would have thought that she had a bad past a longggg time back? I teared upon watching this video. Ah, I wish I could have an eeman as strong as hers. I am in awe, of that great amount of faith that she have in her.

The thing about eeman is that, when we think that our level of eeman is at it's very top, it's actually at it's very low. But come to think of it, we can't actually reallyyy determine about the positioning of our eeman. Everyday, is like a struggle between our eeman and nafs. It's like a jihad; a daily jihad that we Muslims have to go through everyday. So I've come to a conclusion that if I want to keep my level of eeman going high and steady, I must first learn how to keep it going constant first.

And then slowly, I'll take a deeper plunge into my acts of ibadah, and bring my eeman back to it's very top. But that is not going to be easy because I am always held back by worldly affairs. It's a no wonder that my level of eeman all these while, have been inconsistent throughout. If I couldn't even keep my level of eeman going steady and consistent at first, then how could I have even harboured thoughts about bringing it to the very top?