Me?

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful
Assalamualaikum

Title: Me?

They think well of me;
when the truth is that I have only sins to show.

I am but an unthankful slave,
as only You would know.

You hid all my sins,
and made it blind to their sight,

And adorn me with beautiful modest clothes;
my sins they hide.

It is because of that they love me,
when love I don’t deserve,

They compared me to those who truly,
verily, deserve their love.

For that, on the Day of Judgement,
please don’t reveal all the wrongs I have done.

~ Dr Yusuf Al Qardhawi ~

I try so hard. I tried so so hard, to be like the exact embodiment of the ‘ilm that I share. But wallahi, I am finding it difficult and at these moments I feel like there is something just terribly wrong with me. Something is wrong with my heart. My level of imaan is not very stable at the moment. & there seem to be something wrong in every single thing that I am doing. My eeman needs a little bit of a recharge. Now get me the charger.

Say: Surely my prayer and my sacrifice, my life and my death, are all for Allah, the Lord of the worlds. [ Quran: 6:162 ]