I Complain A Lot

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

Assalamualaikum

Title: I know I shouldn't, but I complain a lot.

Greetings, fellow brothers & sisters in Islam. I hope you are in the best state of iman & health. Pardon me for my silence because I have been extremely busy with school work, for the past few months. Believe it or not, I do have a lot of things to share with all of you out there and I always have the strong urge to have it all typed out into this insignificant blog of mine.

But each time, I type out a blog entry, I end up clicking the "save as draft" button instead. It could probably be due to the fact that lately, so many things have been going around in my mind that I can't seem to put my thoughts into words anymore.

And oh yes. Before I forget, I would like to inform you that I have deactivated my facebook account. Many of you may wonder why I have decided to deactivate my facebook account. & here's why.

1) Honestly, I feel that my relationship with Allah is starting to drift apart. It saddens me. It really does. And as I type this out, I realised one thing. Allah; He is always there and He is never far. But  the problem lies in me. It lies in ME. I was the one who strayed. I was the fool who moved away. I log on to Facebook for nearly everyday. It took up most of my time away and so I thought, deactivating my facebook account could at least help to reduce my sins because you can never expect what you'll see on your newsfeed. Eg: a picture of a muslim sister with her boyfriend behaving intimately, a status update of a muslim sister/brother expressing anger or hatred using really harsh words, etc.

It pains me to see all this. But then again, who am I to judge?

2) I sometimes complain and whine on facebook. For example, there was an instance where the weather in Singapore was really hot and the heat was almost unbearable. Many of my contacts on Facebook was complaining about the heat through the means of Facebook. Believe it or not, I was among one of those who complained and that status of mine alone, gathered about 20 likes. But as I looked back at the status, it just shows how shallow I was a human being back then and how ungrateful I was as a Muslim. If I couldn't withstand the heat here, then what would it be like in hellfire?

  

There are many other reasons that contributed to why I have decided to deactivate my facebook account. I will be back on facebook when I think I'm ready. Deactivating my facebook alone, wouldn't change much and I am pretty much aware of that. 

& each time we feel that we are distant from Allah, let's question ourselves this; who moved?