Arrogance

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

Assalamualaikum

Title: Arrogance & Repentence

I was arrogant,

because back then, I seldom did my 5 daily prayers.

I was blind,

because back then, I didn't know how to recite the Quran.

I was a fool,

becase back then, I refused to put on the Hijaab.

I ignored Your presence. I closed an eye to all the evidence that proved Your existence. I failed to realise that actually, You have been watching over me all this while. I used to think that I could live my life without having You by my side. & so I carried on with my life, as though there was no akhirat. I hardly gave my thanks to You. Although I was aware of Your existence, I paid no attention to You. 

I was born as a Muslim, because my parents were Muslims. & that was all I that I know. I didn't know what was written in the Quran. I see no point in putting on the Hijaab. I knew nothing about Islam. But things have changed now. Although I gotta admit that my level of eeman is still not very constant yet, I am glad that You have shown me a little bit of Your light of Hidayah.

Whenever I think about my past, it just gives me the chills. And then whenever I think about how You eventually brought me closer to You, despite how ignorant I had been towards You all these while, I can't help but cry. Oh Allah, for indeed You are the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful, and the Most Forgiving. 

On another note though, I've got just a little something for all of you out there on why we should never give up searching, hoping, and praying for His light of Hidayah. And here's why: 

 Allah SWT, who named himself Ar-Rahman(The Beneficient), and Ar-Rahim(The Merciful) is also the Al-Ghafur(The Forgiving). His mercy overtakes His punishment and anger. He is more merciful to His creations, than a mother can be to her infants. And because He had created us with weakness, we should know that to err is human, and that no one is perfect. So dear brothers and sisters, let us take things slowly, one at a time. Why? Because Slowly but surely, we will soon get to taste the sweetness of eeman insyaAllah. Regardless of whether you are pious or not, there is not a single doa' that Allah doesn't hear. He listens to His servants(us). Is this not enough to show us that He actually cares? =)

Oh son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds of the sky, and then were you to ask forgiveness from Me, I would forgive you. [Hadith Qudsi]