Humble

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful
Assalamualaikum

Title: Being Humble

I've got my imperfections that you might not see.
Don't praise me, but instead please pray for me.

There is nothing about me that are worthy of your praises,
and so please don't think too highly of me.

I am far from being good and I am far from being ideal,
because it all boils down to one thing; I am still learning.

So keep your praises to yourself and save them for Allah instead;
He, the only one who is worthy of all praises.

That was just a little poem I created, to express what I have been feeling all these while. Each time a person  come up to me and tell me something like: "You are just seventeen but your devotion to Allah is amazing. I wish I could be like you."  I would go: *_*

I don't feel flattered at all. What is there to be proud of anyway? Ironically, I would feel very uncomfortable instead. And the worst part is that sometimes  , well most of the times, I don't even know how to react in return, each time people tell something like that to me. If I don't give my thanks to them, soon I'll be known as little miss arrogant. But if I were to say thank you and just give an innocent broad smile, it won't do me any good either because it'll just make my head grow a little bit bigger.

Sure, I may be a student of PERGAS but how does being in that institution makes me in anyway smarter in Islamic Education than compared to the rest?

Being in PERGAS is just a stepping stone for me to further my studies in Islamic education.Therefore I don't see why some people should go all 'woah' each time they know that I am a student of PERGAS. I am in no way different from the rest, so please don't treat me like I'm some kind of an angel.

Sure, I may now have known a little bit of tarannum, but with my limited level of knowledge about the laws of tajweed, how does that little eenie tiny bit of knowledge, makes me in anyway better in Quranic reading than compared to the rest?

I fell in love with tarannum eversince I watched a malaysian TV show; Mari Bertarannum. I am pretty much aware that I am still not strong with my tajweed and shouldn't have studied tarannum when my foundation in tajweed is like only 0.1%. But when the opportunity to study tarannum arrived, my mum immediately signed me up for the tarannum class. However when school starts, I don't know if I could still make time to attend tarannum lessons. But alhamdulilah, I've learnt 3 different songs of tarannum so far; Lagu Bayyati, Lagu Hijjaz and Lagu Nahwand. But I've not mastered them like a pro though. I'll talk more about tarannum in a later blog entry.

The list might just go on and on for God knows how long. But ultimately, I just want you to realise that I am just like you. This blog entry might sound ratjer harsh and the tone I've used in this blog entry might be that of an arrogant one. So if this blog entry have hurt any of you in any way, please accept my deepest apologies. As of now, I'd like to live my life humbly..

Do not deceive yourself into becoming too proud, because you are in a good or righteous environment, for there is no place better than Jannah, Paradise. (Hasan Al-Bahri r.a)