The Boy & His Sins

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful
Assalamualaikum

Title: The Boy & His Sins

" The tears that fall from the eyes of a truthful Believer, out of the fear of the Lord, and then roll down his face, however little they are, even of the size of a fly, it shall prevent the Fire of Hell from touching his face. "  [ Ibn Majah ]

I want to be able to cry like that boy mentioned in the video. I want to be able to cry when I come across verses in the Quran that talks about azab. But I can't. Why can't I? Where did all those tears of repentence of mine go to? I'm running out of tears. What is happening to me? I can't cry anymore for I think I have cried enough. And the next time that I'm going to cry during my supplications, the tears that I shed, will not be the tears of regret for all of the tons of sins that I've committed. But rather, it'll be the tears of frustration that I'll shed, for not being able to cry the tears of regret for all the sins that I've committed.  ]'=

If this video had shed tears to my eyes, it will shed tears to yours too. Please oh please, spend some 10 minutes of your time and listen to this video. It's incredibly touching and I find it somewhat inspirational.  ]'=