Nervous

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

Assalamualaikum

Title: Nervous!

After much deliberation, I have decided to attend for the iftar and terawih with my ex Pra Sijil Pengajian Islam Belia(PSP) mates, at Perdaus. But why this sudden feeling of half-heartedness to go for this event? It's been almost a year since I've last met those lively bunch of brothers and sisters from PSP. It's 4.00p.m now and I will be meeting them at Bukit Gombak Mrt at 6.00p.m first, before walking to the Perdaus centre and meet the many new faces of SPIB people. And I wonder if I will even be welcomed in their class. Oh I am so nervous!

See, upon graduating from Pra Sijil Pengajian Islam Belia(PSP) late last year, I've moved on to Pergas. Had my mum not found out about Pergas's Sijil Pengajian Islam(SPI), I probably would have continued with Sijil Pengajian Islam Belia(SPIB) at Perdaus, for another 2 years. That initially was the supposed plan; until Pergas came to light. So I had to leave Perdaus, and join Pergas instead.

SPIB started it's first lesson early this year and many students had signed up for this course. So, the reason why I am getting all paranoid and worried is because I'll be meeting new faces. Although the sisters and brothers whom I knew from PSP'10, reassured me on our personal Ukhuwwah Fillah group page on facebook a couple of times, that they will receive me with open arms, I am still having second thoughts about it. Maybe it's just me. Perhaps I am just a little too shy. Oh, I am so nervous! ]=

But wait a minute. I have every right to feel shy because I am the youngest in class! Most of them are already in their late teens. They're all like so 'kakak-kakak' and 'abang-abang' already. O ya Allah,  give me the confidence and the courage to face all this. Oh gosh Susu, seriously. Sigh, I sincerely do hope that everything, will turn out well. InsyaAllah.