In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful
Assalamualaikum
Topic: A New Beginning
It's 1432 Hijriyah, 1 Muharram. Alhamdulilah, it's the beginning of a new year in Islam; according to the Islamic Calendar. So how was 1432 for me? I would say that it was rather bad. I'd picture myself as someone who had lost her soul, wondering about aimlessly to nowhere. All that mattered to me back then, were mostly worldly matters. It was always about dunia, dunia, dunia, but never about Allah, Allah, Allah.
I find it an irony because, while I'm happily enjoying life, selflessly indulged with all the worldly goodness that the world has to offer, I never really gave much thoughts about Him, He who created the Earth with so much beauty. In fact, I rarely uttered a single word of syukur, to Him. But He still blessed me with 16 years of life despite my jahil-ness.
I lived my life as though there was no akhirat. I never thought about akhirat. And as much as I thought that that could wait, Allah proved me wrong. Alhamdulilah, halfway through 1432, I received a little bit of his light of Hidayah through an unpleasant experience. Honestly, if I were to tell you more about it, you'd probably find it hard to believe. So I choose to keep my my mouth shut each time people asked me about my sudden change, to return to His path.
Yeah, people asked. But I'd just smile and say, I don't know. Wait, but I didn't really do bad things like smoking, dating, flirting, drinking, shoplifting, saying vulgarities and stuffs. In school, I could be considered as one the most innocent kid ever. I mean, I had good values and morals and all that. But the thing that was lacking in me back then, was iman.
But alhamdulilah, now I begin to see the importance of having Allah in our lives, the importance of seeing Islam not just as a religion with ibadahs, but see Islam as a way of life. InsyaAllah, 1432 will be a better year for me to repent and be a better Muslimah. Yes, I am definitely aware of the challenges that awaits me and I'll take one things at a time.
