Alhamdulilah, for all the good things

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful
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Title: Alhamdulilah, for all the good things

There are so many things for me to be grateful for this week. My mum had sent in the registration form for SLPI to Pergas yesterday. I took the express route, and it will be held on every Tuesday and Thursday evenings at Wisma Indah. It's going to take 1.5 years long for me to complete the course and a hectic schedule awaits. But that's fine; anything, for the sake of Allah. InsyaAllah.

The other good news; I received an email from Darul Makmur mosque late last night. I was offered a job, alhamdulilah. They proposed me the position of an aLIVE part-time teacher/trainer for 2012. Below are the classes that they need me to teach:

1) Saturday, 10:30am - 2.00pm: Teens aLIVE 2/2 (Secondary 2 students)
2) Saturday, 2.00pm - 5.00pm: Tweens aLIVE 4/1 (Primary 4 students)
3) Sunday, 7.30am - 11.00am: Teens aLIVE 2/4 (Secondary 2 students)

It's like a dream come true. Previously, I was just a relief teacher at the mosque. And now, they are offering me a permanent part-time job as an aLIVE trainer. I should be happy, I should be glad, and I should be thankful. But there is only one thing that is bothering my mind right now. Standing at only 17 years of age, I wonder if I am qualified to take up the position as a part-time aLIVE trainer, or not.

Apart from that, all the ustaz and ustazah in the youth department, are a lot more older than I am. They're all already in their late 20's & in addition to that, they are all diploma holders and degree holders in Islamic education. But here I am, only 17, armed with only a Pergas Sijil Pengajian Islam(SPI) at hand, offered the role as an aLIVE teacher? Have you any idea how that makes me feel like? It makes me feel incompetent. I feel sooo small. I mean, I'm only a kid, I'm only 17, and I'm not even a full-time madrasah student to begin with. Do you feel me?

But really, I would loveee to take up this job offer and it would be a great pity if I were to give this opportunity a miss, because teaching has always been my passion! This too, would be a good platform for me to polish up on my teaching skills, before I leave for attachment next year. I guess I think I should perform solat isthikharah first, before coming to any fixed decision. InsyaAllah.

When I told this to my parents, this was what my mother said:

Su masyaAllah, you are so lucky you know. Orang lain susah payah nak carik kerja. Tapi Su lain. Ni kerja yang datang carik Su. Alhamdulilah, ni rezeki dari Allah sayang. I can't decide for you my dear. Sebarkan ilmu yang Su ada, pada generation muda. Niat nak mengajar kene bersih dan suci and it must be for the sake of Allah. Bukan untuk show-off. Ibu dan ayah izinkan Su bekerja, but you must know how to manage your time well. The rest, is all up to you. You have our support. *hugs*

Aww. Alhamdulilah, alhamdulilah, alhamdulilah. ['=  <3